My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More
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Sometimes in life you get lost…

If you are lost, you can always be found, or find your way again….

14th December 2006 14:18hrs

My life was taken away from me.. now I see it’s my purpose to get it back again

Find a purpose, and you will find yourself

Be you as it’s one thing nobody else can

Two days back

Jennifer changed my catherter

My life, my little dog

Everyday seems harder and harder just getting thru.. the pain through my legs the aches in my back, my freedom completely taken from me, reliant on someone for everything and anything I need. The pain the frustration… it’s real, it all stems from one day, one accident, one mistake that I re live each day everyday, there are people living a life like mine…. but they are not me… the way my mind processes this I push all my emotion through my little dog, 24hrs a day all day he’s by my side… helping me find a light inside me every day, I breathe but I break down more and more each day…. 11 years and counting

My life my mistake… my pain

The little life that I protect next to me by my side everyday

He keeps me going, my little dog Dexter
The happiness I hold inside

Be all you can be, because one day all you can be will be gone!

A time to be born…

And a time for each of us to die

Dec 14th 2006, was not my day to go…

Still here as time ticks bye

Running on empty

Fighting an impossible fight locked in a body unable to move… mind alive through time I wait for what may never come, torture of the mind watching, feeling the body fail with a light inside each day harder to find…

Another day…. maybe, life does find a way

be everything and be all that you are, for one day we will be nothing… each and everyone, we come into this world with nothing.. and we leave with nothing, throughout our lives we strive to achieve everything.. all that you really need is someone to remember you, then you will live on… Brandon lee once said in the crow – “buildings burn, people die… but real love lasts forever”

Today I cried…

Today like yesterday and the past 4045 days previously I’ve re lived one moment… one moment that tried to break me… tried but failed as I’m still here!

My realisation today was if I knew I would live each day in pain.. tormented by frustration and the freedom throughout life that I will never have.. it broke me, broke me down thinking that if I knew this was to come… I would have wanted to unplug the life support, once as my body went into cardiac arrest so did the man in the next room… the crash team brought me back but the man next door left this world! I find myself quite often wondering if they brought the right one back….

I see people and they ask.. how are you? Are you ok? The truth everyday I’d like to shout NO! I’m tired now, I don’t like the life I live but haven’t got the power in my body to do anything, just lay or sit in pain burning everyday

Trapped in a body broken with my mind alive!

I am broken and may never be fixed… but still I wake, each day the sun will rise and until the breath leaves me for good…. I’ll be here fighting my silent fight, feeling the burn of all the nerves throughout my body.. burning like fire

So… how am I today?

Not good, not very good at all!

Tomorrow will come, another day will dawn… and I’ll be here to see what may

“What if.. if only”

Bring on the future

Because I’m just tired of living in the past…

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