My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More

Yesterday cahtherter change by butcher, all good, certificate in the post!

Standing today, autumn is quickly coming (at last), which means soon fireworks and new walking dead


happy birthday to Stephen Barwise who brought me this far pushing my physical boundaries over nearly ten years


three days of pulled pork, soul food! Slow cooked with mustard and maple syrup

No-one knows



around each corner, every day a new day

the drive to survive….

Beauty love and life

imageBeauty is fleeting.. Like a rose on a fence sitting in a wind tunnel that is life, it comes from the earth to blossom through a branch of thorns, the beauty within is undeniable, even with all the effort put into getting it there, the wind blows.. The petals fall and the flower loses itself from the outside in..

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Lives and loves and holds no grudge, he lives a short life and leaves, but in that life leaves a life full of love, any life lost leaves a hole but all the suffering in life is worth that time spent loving… That moment of beauty held in your heart forever, life is worth living because it’s only through all the pain that you finally see the true beauty that life hides.. Suffer a life time for a moment of love, that moment is then yours forever


Where there’s life there’s hope, and if the slightest glimmer of hope… There’s still life to live, be that my life or yours, hope beyond any possibility as any hope…. All hope is life and every life is built around hope, without it we are nothing, with it we can be anything, do anything

I am all that I am

But not all that I can be… All that you see is not me, it’s from within that you will find the real me

After six days trying, different things happening, wed/sat/mon Tuesday finally changed the cahtherter by Jennifer -job well done

Survival with the devil at your back!


Everyday I continue with the pain that is life…. Why and to what end who knows?? Up and down each day the same.. No end to a never ending cycle of pain, even through all this, each day i wake and continue.. Death is peace.. A long life lived through all the pain and suffering, loneliness and heart ache brought on by everyday, why live for the pain??? It’s because we are built this way, we are built.. each and everyone, we survive through hope, never satisfied with the here and now… Although bad.. It is what drives to survive, remember the good times, each one will fade through time… A cycle between the pain but once through each one there is joy, love and understanding, living through the bad times makes the good times better.

A teaspoon of ice cream is better than a bucket! A taste and you crave more, gives you a drive for more, you get a bucket and you feel sick, a little goodness though a day of pain, it is why we keep going, each day feeling the devil behind you.. Stand strong, do not run, for the day you can turn around and stare him down is the day you win, live for the pain, learn to love life for each little indifference, bring on the pain because once you live it each day not even the devil can make you down.

Make each day your own, own your life… You are the one living it!

Be all that you are ment to be, you never know when it is your turn to stand strong and stare the devil down, turn your back and find your heaven, golden gates to a life you dream

Talk hard! Stay strong, be yourself.. Nobody else can

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BECAUSE.. all life is so fragile!


Follow the link! Support Kai Nell


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Early in 2015, at just 2 years of age gorgeous Kai Nell was diagnosed with High Risk Acute Myeloid Leukaemia, he fought a tough battle with 4 rounds of high dose chemo and a life saving bone marrow transplant.

After spending over 6 months living in an isolation room at PMH he got to go home, he was in remission but the journey was not over, AML is a notoriously hard cancer to cure and relapse is common, and after nearly 1 year since his bone marrow transplant Kara and Richard have been given the devastating news that he has relapsed.

This means little Kai has to undergo more intensive chemo treatment and another bone marrow transplant, he has a huge fight ahead of him.

Throughout Kai’s diagnosis and treatment to date, Kara and Richard have selflessly raised over $50,000 for charities wanting to bring awareness and funding to this awful disease.

Now they are faced with the biggest hurdle to date and I’m sure, like myself, many of you feel helpless and desperate to help.

The treatment is gruelling and requires at least one of them to be in the isolation room in hospital with Kai 24/7 for many months.

I am fundraising money for the family to ease the financial pressure on them so they can concentrate on taking care of Kai and their other 3 boys during this extremely difficult time.

Please share and donate (every little bit helps!) and together we can help support this beautiful family in their time of need.

Thank you all so much for your love and support.