After a few days taking it easier.. from a crazy weekend last week to my catherdar change on Wednesday, yesterday i got up for a shower in the morning but that was all i could take, as my blood pressure was really low from the diazipam the day before.. today i went out with tyler in the boma chair for some fresh air - i’m still pressing on with the self transfers, tomorrow Steve isn’t coming so i will do both my leg and arm bike
Things things things… everything takes so long! tomorrow, the next day, next week, month even next decade! life is as we make it… life is what you make! become all you can be!
write that letter.. send that e-mail… make that call, your only here once - it’s better to regret what you’ve done, rather than what you could have done..
SO BE IT
the thing that i hold onto is that 3yrs ago i could only move my head.. now i am pushing myself to walk - i will have my independence
yes.. most days i do regret going swimming that day - but i wouldn’t be the person that i am today if i hadn’t… AND I AM NOT GOING TO BE AS I AM FOREVER!
do not follow what i did….. follow WHO i am
it all went well on the parallel bars, my reflex’s in my knees are spot on now! this is big.. because 3yrs ago i had nothing! i’m doing the bars again Tuesday, unfortunately… that can of redbull got me in the mood to drink more.. which has resulted in me still hungover today!! a good night but…. it does affect my physio…….. needs to happen every now and again..
tomorrow i’ll test out my strength on the parallel bars.. things should be good - i’ve
done the arm bike a lot since my last stand (with a couple of breaks..) plus for my breakfast i have an extra large can of red bull to give me a boost
i have been on the treadmill today, i will be on my bike as much as possible then on Saturday, i’m going to see what i can do strength wise, things should have improved.. but i have to try not to over do things like last time - bit by bit
legs and arms… but due to having my nose all blocked, im lacking in sleep… ZZZZZZZZZZzzzz bring on the summer heat of south east England!
Getting better - i was on the treadmill today, each time i do it things change, Steve sits in front moving my legs forward “simulating” walking, the more i do it my brain has more time to map out what my legs are doing, touching on muscle memory, since i’ve been using my bars and treadmill my reflex’s have really came back to life - EVERYTHING CAME FROM NOTHING - it’s the big bang theory, and the text i have tattooed on my back! medically i was told that if theres nothing there nothing will come…. i’ve been told lots of things that i’ve decided to say bollock’s to and do my own thing..
my shoulders.. my strength… i feel quite weak at the moment, physio is ok, i’m not breaking any records but i’m not going backward either - i can still maintain independent standing. My reflex’s are actually getting better in my right leg - each time my knee is “tapped” i get a jolt up through my quad - this is very promising in itself.. again - nobody knows what will happen! today i’m going to the beach to fly my kite and walk the dogs
Half Moon Cay - Bahamas
i went out and got muddy today in the off road chair - bring on the summer! i will be out a lot more this year - it’s time for my Independence.. i’m still maintaining my new transfers.. although i’m really feeling it today in my arms! i’ve got to push through to move forward… but not over do it - i’ll be back on my bike tomorrow - legs and arms
i went on the tread mill on Saturday with Steve, i’ve found that i’ve jumped ahead of myself… i need to slow down a bit, it’s so hard to try and move on “just enough” i have found that standing with the bars has really taken it out of me… it’s good that now i know what i’m capable of - what i WILL be able to achieve in the future, i need to build my upper body up a little more, and increase the strength in my left wrist.. but soon i will be up again.. after standing last week, my shoulders and arms were killing me, i was unable to do my arm bike… so now i am concentrating on my upper body strength, so tomorrow back to basic’s - i’ll be doing transfers. I’ll be using my arm bike and wrist weight then seeing what i can do in a few weeks time. it is important to let the body rest to!
