Pain…
PAIN…. its temporary you can work through it! it hurts but can be done.. 
the human body is versatile you can push through! my body was broken.. but it can be rebuilt, each day the aches get shorter and i can go for longer… coming off the drugs my body burns.. it’s “the nerves talking..” it doesn’t get easier - not yet anyway… focus on whats ahead, not on the past - that has been!
Bring on the future - who knows what will be…
find your paradise - i have mine…