i’m home from hospital, things went well, although now i have a blocked nose for the next month… inbetween nose bleeds.. thank you so much for making a hard day as easy as possible everyone involved in the procedure today at Tonbridge Wells hospital. i should be fine now i have nurse Tyler to look after me now..
transfers are on a steady roll, each one very independant, i have just completed 8.7miles on the leg bike and 6.4miles with the arm bike.
in the morning im in hospital…
Suzannes quote of the day
“Don’t let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go” ~ Catherine Pulsifer
things are better today, i have just finished 6.7miles on my arm bike and 8.6miles on my leg 
bike - now i’m just chilling.. my transfers are improving to, each one im doing so much more independantly.. i’m just building myself for a wonderful day Friday (operation day)
I’ve changed the way that i transfer again making things a lot more independent - its the only way forward.. i’m becoming very independant with the transfers but lack confidence, this was prior to physio where nothing went right in standing nothing would kick in and i just couldn’t stand.. this i’ve put down to a lot of unnecessary stress over the past few days, i then went on the crazy horse which ended the session well.. trying to stay positive is so hard…… trying each day to deal with everything and not even able to sit up properly unaided.. its soul destroying
i have just done 8.7 miles with my leg bike then 6.3 miles using the arm bike, then a little trip down to poddington house, things are really moving - i just need the boma 
to be able to do so much more… tomorrow i will be standing with the parallel bars - lets see if theres any more improvements… im looking into money raising ideas for this boma wheelchair, im coming up to £5000 so we’re getting there (slowly slowly..) thank you Melissa Elston (Tina’s sister, every penny gets me closer to my independence)
improvements STILL.. but way slower then i want - i got real close on the transfer front, standing and 
balance 
was very good - next session im going to stand using the bars, and FES in-between
“be like water”
Requiem en terra pax Bruce Lee 20th July 1973
Today i have physio - im going to crack through self transfers… i’ve had enough 
now, and for a change i’m full of energy. on Thursday i had more work done on my back (tattoo - see pictures) this is relevant to my recovery because of sensation, up on my shoulders i have the two turtles and on my neck the Miami Project symbol - having these done were as normal (i had other work done prior to my injury..) the world map… i didn’t feel him start! it just felt like viberations through my back (no pain) but the crazy thing is the vasaline afterwards i felt more (the sensation was as normal.. i also had used vasaline prior to the injury) and now the “heeling process” is as normal
EVERY INJURY IS DIFFERENT - NO-ONE KNOWS WHAT WILL COME
The hardest thing i’ve done in my life - is what i’m doing right now!
“Be individual”
today i had the pre-op assessment.. they just go through all the things that “could go wrong” im really really not looking forward to this (like a scared little kitten, i’ll put a brave face on though)… tomorrow i will do the FES arm bike (at least twice (12.6 miles)) this is to make me STRONG for Saturday morning with Steve and my “self transfers” bring on the independence
click the LINK they gave me a taste, you can see how good it is.. but its still just out of reach - Boma wheelchair
today, i didn’t check the calender… and ended up with a catheter change and dosed up with diazepam then tomorrow my pre-op assessment.. next Friday i have the operation so not a good few days.
