My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More
Bear love! 

No more for me!! Stepping forward all the time…

I found I’m twitching in my left hand (no massive movement) but definitely twitching motor function, November 3rd I thought my kidneys were hurting due to cold… but today my back was hurting, my jumper was rolled up giving me pain.. my point is I never had the awareness of this much of my body

All since I decided to drop gabapentin

(In my view) a very bad drug I should never have been on, and for nearly 12 years! No more though

Baclofen will be going December 14th

Gabapentin free!

Yes these past few days and the few to follow have been and are about to be unpleasant, but I’ll ride through the storm to better days to come….

Weight gain must also be a side effect, as stopping this drug I’m definitely less bloated and smaller in the waist department

Baclofen next… just need to re-coop a little first, I’ll drop on the 14th December to mark the anniversary of this “bump on the head”


Tomorrow (Wednesday) I’ll be down to 100mg’s of gabapentin! I was going to slow down but I’m still going forward… yes having a few withdrawals but soon to be without this stuff in my system, just four more dose’s then off gabapentin after 11 years of not needing it

I will give it a week or a little more then hit baclofen next..

By the new year no pain drugs for me


A little bit difficult now only 200 mg’s… I’m going to drop weekly to finish as the percentage I drop increase’s drastically every time – this next drop will be 50%!

Not turning back but cold turkey is a bitch at the minute

Another very good catheter change by auntie Pauline x thank you and enjoy the chocolate xxx


Gabapentin…… really!

Pain meds…???

Blocking Nero pathways throughout my body for what?

No more medication for me soon

A step toward freedom

Pain update…..
No change! The pain I have is still there but this I’ve had since 2006.. the spasticity in my legs… the same too, no increase as 1100mg’s becomes 400mg’s

Starting to think all this is a big lie! Why fill me with drugs all these years without asking “are you in pain”?

(One thing, always seek medical advice before trying anything I’ve documented – I am not a doctor)

I never questioned things as I felt they knew what they were doing… I thought the pain I felt was the tip of what the medication was covering…. but no, I just invited a whole wold of crap into my life through the unknown side effects that follow

It took me to hit the floor mentally to think how can I continue… I could see my own end! I don’t want to die…. but I can’t live like this!

No one can live your life.. only you!

Help doesn’t come… you need to push yourself over the edge…. this I did.. I just didn’t realise there was a safety ledge that is strength of mind, pulling me back

(I repeat – I am no doctor!)

I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m going…. I’m just riding the winds of time to see where life lands me

Re-assessing and re-evaluation often


Down down down

Everyday a step forward, 400mgs of gabapentin now, no bad side effects, I have found I’m “more aware” of my body – spatial awareness…

I wrang the dr to sort the priscription out and chased up the job agency

Stay as I am… die as I am….. or live.. live a life being me

I choose life