My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More

A lot of sun….. hot heat but through the days, a ray of sunshine can make you smile and push the bad times aside.. karma sometimes springs things on you… sometimes just sometimes in the heat of the day a smile feels better than the things that drive the daily life, few and far between but “it can’t rain all the time” – the wise words of Brandon lee

Darkness falls as the night draws in, the heat of the day resides.. the darkness gets deeper.. the thoughts arise as the hurt and pain that is my life stays… strong I stay…. because another day will dawn, the day bring light but still the pain will continue.. until one day……

It won’t
Staying strong into the unknown

“You don’t know what’s it’s like to cling to nothing while you drown!”

Someone else’s thoughts, worded right to the way I feel, as I can’t seem to put things right in any way, mind or matter these days…

There’s a devil in me.. his name is “frustration”, crawling around inside, feels like the heat of the sun throughout me, feeling frustration climbing up inside my body through to the top of my spine.. above and beyond my eyes, killing me through day and night, a heat building up in my chest with no way out… just waiting for something, something that may never come…. but still I wait… wait until that’s me no more

Frustration is the devil in me!

The will to survive out ways any other… what if, if only…. why me… because it’s the road laid down for me.. can’t change it, have to live it…. may as well be me!

You have to truly lose yourself before you can even start to find yourself… who you are or where you are headed… through everything for some reason I’m here through the night and everyday, I don’t give in I can’t give up… I continue.. the not knowing is one thing that holds me on

As the day drew to a close Summers words as he fell from day to night, this… this is my mate the moth! He’s come to keep you company until the light of day brings me right back to you until the autumn nights draw in the cold nights of winter…… bringing you pain, all different types of pain and there are a few!

Still down by my side lays my buddy day and night

White and fluffy, asleep under my bed, right where I rest my head

Burning, fire… pain on a normal day.. drugged up unable to move… then along came a spider and sat down beside me, his name he said “I’m Summer! that burn you have.. let’s set it on fire”

“A knife you say….” (said the little spider named Summer) ”let me heat it up and press it against you, right in the sore hot searing pain you have.. can’t get worse you say… let’s just give you another day of Summer!” Said the spider with the very same name..

A fear you have, a pain you say..? Let me show you, fire and burn each day… why you say? Because one day I bumped my head and all the kings horses and all his men couldn’t put me back together either

But each morning I wake with my little dog beside me keeping all the thoughts away

Bring on storm Chris! Rain and lower temps in Kent!!

A break in the weather! bring on spring and autumn, I’d even take winter over summer