My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More

Autonomic dysreflexia two days previous took me to hospital, blue lights in the ambulance, a day spent in a&e to no avail, I can only guess at the cause, something, some pain within my body maintaining my blood pressure at a level just below AD, any stimulus to my body pushes me into the dangerous level

Maxed out at 268/127…

My life at the minute, on the edge of autonomic dysreflexia every day at present, pain beyond any other, I’m not afraid of Dying, I’m afraid of losing dexter… when my head feels like it’s cracking open the thoughts I have are I’m ready to go.. but all he gets me though everyday, he is my keeper, I’m not his owner, he keeps me fighting through the unbelievable pain of autonomic dysreflexia

To live without hope is to live in despair!

I am forever at a crossroad between the two….

From where i was to who I’ve become?

It’s where I go from now that matters..

Last night Jennifer changed my catheter, a scheduled one but with high blood pressure……?

Tomorrow didn’t bring much other than more confirmation that life is pain… and pain and frustration continue to be the life laid out for me

They say “you control your own destiny” and “fate is what you make”

But when all I can just about control is the tv!

The peace that death will bring weather is just lights out and darkness forever…. heaven… or hell.. Valhalla.. or 70 virgins there waiting…

I’ll just be with my dogs, quiet and pain free

I wasn’t born for this…. I was born to live

I’d like to be the first to say “it’s too hot!!” (I don’t sweat)

Waiting to see what tomorrow brings, day by day…

Waiting for me to come home!

Even the wrong path can take you home… “be a free man”

My freedom locked in a body broken!

I came home..

I am stuck in my mind, Dexter by my side, keeping me from falling off the knife edge

Today just isn’t a good day

Follow your path into a world unkind… unforgiving… a world of torture, tortured everyday… but into this world we each continue down our road… until death do us part my friend

Not a good day..

Things just happen……

That’s it, deal with who you are and the “health status” you have

You may never be this healthy again!

Some of us are just a little more broken than the rest