My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More

In this life each path that ends, then starts another… some once walked, others new to the world, some lay parallel some go alone.. most lead onto another, few desolve, be all you can be as no-one knows what your path holds

Alls well that ends well! Good days bad days.. if in doubt get a Chinese

Kama’s good to me this weekend, two days back extreme pain for no reason, life is a lottery every day

“I no longer fear death as I’ve known it once already…”

Wrong diagnosis! No glaucoma, with glasses just slightly scared but healthy eyes…

Good news in a bad situation

You and me

Try and take the heart out of something…

Whatever happens the heart lives on! Be it right now or forever more, your heart may slow or even stop beating.. but the power inside can never be extinguished…

What you want and truly need are what separates the “not right now” from the “never”! what is going to be…. will!

Believing and letting go won’t change what will be.

However disheartening or disheartened this world gets, it will build who you are ment to be… but who you truly are, that seed was sown long ago.. you are YOU! Nobody can take that from you

Your life is yours alone and no-one can live your life other than you

Your heart may fade your dreams change… but you are always YOU

Catherter changed by Jennifer Kate jacinta smith

Find a happy place

Stuck in time, driven by pain… contemplating everything and anything in the universe at 00:20 hrs, sleep waiting for the brain to stop thinking… typing instead of relaxing into slumber, one night comfort the next pain… the same sheets, the same bed, the same frame, the same routine, the same each night… no physio for two years.. I’m thinking my ligaments throughout my body tightening causing pain with pressure over my left arse cheek! A slight difference in position, the joys of paralysis over ten years

Giving up would be to easy… but I’ve been driven to that door but just can’t passed through!

Ten years back I broke my neck… bones burst in my neck, I drowned in the sea… I drowned once more in Hospital, then they froze me, hyperthermia and defibrillation 6 times… adrenaline injected each time into my heart..

I’m here, I continue.. to what end and why who knows.. but for some reason each and everyone is here, the sun rises in a few hours, a new day dawns, strength through each day fed from within, each of us living our own pain… but this pain that is my paralysis you will never know.. each of us traveling our own path…


It’s hard to….

Wanting to believe in something is easy.. actually believing in what you try to want is impossible..

What’s in your heart, you can not change…

Some how, some way each day I continue

Heart ache, hurting and all the pain that is life…

Another day done on this road in front of me, tomorrow brings everything and nothing

But still tomorrow all I can be is me!

A new day

a new beginning…

Holding on to hope for a future untold

Family time

Death waits…


For all of us.. when your time comes, you go….. that’s it!

Not I..
Not me..

For reason unknown I was sent back, back to a life that I live, I live this life in a body broken, a soul alive within.. my body taken leaving me as I am

Frustration lived, patience growing… time ticking, ticking away, already taken my movement, now after the world that I see through my own eyes you come now to take the sight that I have.. not yet… not now but you’re on your way, glaucoma is your form but at bay I’ll hold you.. until no more that I can hold you…. but still I’m here, here to torture, here I am, only just… but still just.. it’s me, you haven’t taken me, death you tried.. but here I am, taken bit by bit, piece by piece….

But still I’m here.. here for reasons unknown

Stronger than life, surrounded by pain, but life is pain and pain is life

You tried to take me, here I wait until we see one another again

Be all you can be, and all that I can be is me!