My Story...
Hi I’m Alex and I’m a marine engineer, while working out in the Caribbean in 2006 during some leisure time I went swimming and my whole life changed in an instant... I hit my head on a sand bank and broke my neck. The vertebrae at c5 fractured and c6 broke into three parts one of which damaged my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed from the chest down. More
Stand strong

If you can learn to stand alone… you will become strong from within, once you can control alone, loneliness is a hand always at your back, turn it around and enjoy your own company turn the day upside down, feel yourself grow from within… I can’t physically stand, but mentally I stand alone, I am strong from within, take all that you can from me but I still stand… I stay strong, I stand by me!

Once you find yourself, others will too.. life is strange, don’t try to work it out you never will, but fall back into the sands of time, live what will be, life is life… it is what it is, life.. your life, my life, from one day to the next.. you can’t tell what’s next, but learn yourself.. enjoy the moment’s in time that you alone can… stand strong, be yourself…

“the smallest light will light the darkest night”

No matter what, each night the morning follows… as it will each day until your time is up… then no matter what, it is all that it is.. you can’t control that.. just let go, learn your life right now, be who you are… be alll that you are.. some time the light will fade as with each day, everything comes to an end!

You can be surrounded by a thousand people and still be alone, compassion, comfort, control over your emotions… let go.. just be you

(Patience is something to learn to especially trapped in my world)

I am broken, I may never be fixed…. But inside I maintain strength and positivity through everything, I can not give you an answer why, I just do.. I’ve tried “letting go” “giving in”…. I just can’t.. Not yet, I don’t think I could reach that point..

Well….

A long trip in a van.. but ultrasound and X-ray showed no kidney stone!? Two years I’ve had a 9mm diameter stone lodged in my kidney.. now poof it’s gone, I use a reverse osmosis water filter (and drink six to seven bottles each 24hr’s), I do produce a lot of sediment in my urine.. must have desolved it

So in all a good day

Hospital tomorrow morning 7am start, great time in the van for X-rays and check over, oiling the gears

02:34hrs

As I lay awake listening to my pulse waiting for my eyes to shut, waiting.. waiting for something that never actually comes… for the morning to come, for the night to end.. dexters breathing keeping things calm, thoughts diced up and thrown around my mind, the depths of the night or early hours of tomorrow… they say “it never comes..” here I am listening to my pulse, knowing it’s the very start of dysreflexia pushing on my mind, most likely a crease in the cotton sheet cutting me like a knife…. only relief to lie on my hand, light sensation burning like fire

Stand and be counted

for today you are here,all of us will fall one day, that day may be far.. for some that day may even be today, for one little guy that is tomorrow…

I didn’t know you, but I’ll be thinking of you

“Waiting for tomorrow, tomorrow may never come”
(Quote from someone somewhere, who I don’t know, but it fits)

“Crack a rat” its back!

 

Snowing, but soon summer and heat problems, spring first and after summer autumn comes.. in between life happens, nobody knows what that brings, maintains an air of positivity and hope

Time

Is a world into its own, one second passes, a day, a month, a year… each takes its own time.. but to live one moment takes a lifetime, live one moment feels like an eternity. Time is relative to the moment you’re in, good times pass in an instant, bad times not so much.. but a memory can be re-lived over and over

Ten years have flown by, but each second dwelled on one moment that can never be changed

Paralysed by time, but free to roam the depths of my own mind, places I’ve been and never will again, places still to see.. but time is on us all

Do with yours what you will, for we are all trapped in our own time

K9